fresh and clean!

“sleigh bells ringinggggg. are you listeninnnnnnnnng.“

i think my co workers had too much from me today. ahha. i got stamped three times by steve and the stupid UWMC GIFT SHOP stamp. twice on my face in front of a line of customers. and i got picked and thrown (almost!) into the trash as well. i was just so giddy. it must have been the two cups of swiss chocolate almond flavored coffee i chugged down in hopes of staying awake.

i’ve actually had pleasant sleep these last few days. and they have been superb and GR8. that’s right, i wrote GR8 just cuz it was GR8. drama-free worry free is so good. last night, i got to bed and after my goodnight text(s) to people, i CONKED out. sorry izzy, got your text from 12:34pm (haha 1234.) at 6:34 am this morning! and this week, lunching with my fabulous friends have been sincerely lovely.

i’m just oozing with gratitude and energy right now. if i could stick random hello kitty stickers on this blog, i would. you should see my phone.  (yes you can!) see? yea, my phone kicks your phone’s ass.

OOBER CLOSEUP.

damn right i’m special (says the STICKER). and so what if i only have hello kitty stickers. i’m bouts to get those sexy rhinestones and start sticking them on. haha. i’m loving my impression even though the screen’s fritzy sometimes. but thatsokay, cuz i can text awesomely.

OH.

and i’m purely awesomest because i rock the cute-teddy-bear-on-my-badge look at work too. c-c-check it.

my id badge pic is horrible and only ken has seen it (“dude. what the hell is this picture. it looks like you gained hella weight”…or something along those lines. haha) and so i just had to cover it up (: but yes, that teddy bear has a story.

once upon a time (7th grade) i had a crush on conor shine. he chucked a teddy bear he found at my head. i ended up keeping it because 1) conor shine chucked it at me and 2) it was cute. the end.

and of course, the same hello kitty sticker i have on my phone, ONLY in orange.

and do notice that my face looks highly scary, lurking behind images held up to the webcam. but my fingers do look so pretty… xD

over the weekend, cleanup in chinatown was fun. we found all sorts of stuff and i met some new people that were pretty chill. i did meet someone that especially caught  my eye but alas, the koreans have once again taken all the good picks. ahha. i did get to chat with the vp of vsa, valerie, who is ONE AMAZING girl. she’s absolutely gorgeous and just talented. it’s funny because he oldest bro is an IT specialist at a hospital and her other bro is in pharm school and uh…my brother is an IT specialist at a hospital and my sister is a pharmacist. only dif is that she’s going to pharm too and me? me…i don’t know. (: i completely envy her..she’s been EVERYWHERE and she’s outgoing but she still maintains the best grades and stuff. super jealousy. and did i mention she’s beautiful? ):

i went to the dmv to sign up for driving test. freaking costs twenty dollars. ridiculous. but then dad effing yelled at me because i signed up for december 5th which is when we leave for vietnam and he says that we won’t have TIME when it takes like TWENTY mins to effing take the test. and it’s the only saturday appt open before we leave. shitake. i will have to call them again to see if anyone dropped their saturday appt but fat chance.

short notes before i head off to do some physics and chemwork.

– i ultimately suck at pool

– i ultimately suck at recognizing people without my contacts on

– i love froyooooooooooo to deeeeeeath

– im afraid of my boss

– i really like bad romance my lady gaga. even though the video makes me giggle.

– midterm on friday for physics and chem. funstuff right?

feel — marie digby.

there’s always one song out there that can pinpoint exactly how you feel.

marie digby’s new album is absolutely great. def. better than her previous one. but some of the songs are a bit synthesized which makes me sad. so this one…this one is perfect.

 

 

bad romance — lady gaga [mv]

bwahaha. i love this. lady gaga and her crazy videos/preformances. can’t wait to see her preform on the AMAs.

note – crazy polar bear cape when she was stripping.. and the corpse in the burnt bed? hot. and her red outfit was pretty schmexy. it was pretty intense (:

if i had a nickel for every time…

- i wrote a text message and then decided not to send it. i’d be rich.

- i wrote a text message to this specific person and decided not to send it. i’d be rich.

- i slid my phone out to check if i got a text message. i’d be rich.

- i slid my phone out hoping to see if i got a text message from this specific person. i’d be rich.

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verteran’s day today! slept in til 2pm. watched two gg episodes. ate half a large papaya. and now i am determined to do my physics until i get at least 80% of it done.

vietnam is in less than a month. excitemeeeeent. yes.

why is superpoke still popular on facebook? well, ocassionally, out of the blue, i get a barrel of monkets thrown at me. and facebook keeps encouraging me to “reconnect with melanie truong” because i haven’t wrote something on her wall lately. lol.

class scheduling for next quarter is FRIDAY. anxious because i only have so many choices.

i am most likely hooking up my DSL in january considering i got paid yesterday. yay.

i’m craving some froyo but it’s absolutely chilly outside.

i need to cut my toenails.

work was fun yesterday. i learned how to play darts. and i think my boss hates me because she told me to do dusting yesterday. it’s where you have to take ALL THE MERCHANDISE off the glass shelves and then wipe the glass shelves down with glass cleaner to make it all clear and transparent. and there are A LOT of shelves and A LOT of shit to take off the shelves and put back on. luckily, sandra came in and asked me to price stuff so…saved by very ugly wallets! (:

i was highly surprised by my physics exam. i was actually wondering if the teacher changed TAs because this time, if i just wrote down a few numbers and had no idea what the HELL i was doing, i got 3 points out of ten. =D so i ended up getting a minimal grade considering i mainly got 3 points out of ten on most problems. hahaha. ><” i think this will be the exam i get dropped.

ally is going through some tuffy problems that are making her sad so i try to be a good friend and be there for her but i’m so unsure about what to say and i don’t even know if i’m helping or making it worse. i get that sometimes i don’t get her and whatnot but i want to try to be a better friend to her and be there for her because since what happened on her birthday, i do realize that i take her for granted a lot. =|

 

more for less.

I DON’T GET IT.

being a girl, i do love wearing girly flirty stuff.

but can you PLEASE tell me why a  thong costs more than boy shorts sometimes.

or why denim shorts can be more expensive than denim jeans.

or a miniskirt more than pants.

i mean, there’s less material, so shouldn’t be cheaper?

tanks and camis are generally cheaper than whole tees.

and i’m not saying that the price ranges because of the brand and where you get it.

i’m saying WITHIN one store.

and WHY OH WHY ARE G-STRINGS MORE EXPENSIVE THAN THONGS?

excerpts from today’s comm class lecture.

the constant struggle in a relationship.

the most important thing in a relationship is the constant struggle to find balance.

do you tell them everything or do you keep some secrets?

we’ve got this idea that honesty is the best in a relationship. crap.

“i love him for who he is, and not for what he looks like” says the lady in the movie.

“bullshit” says crispin.

if it’s too predictable, it becomes stale.

we have to be constantly judging these balances.

yay.

breezing by.

last monday i was fine. and then I got killer sick that night.

tuesday. work from 7-1 was killer. i was chugging down Emergen-C like my life depended on in (basically).

No seriously, I was dying. and then I had a PHYSICS midterm that same day.

Yea, as IF I’m going to pass THAT one. I’m LUCKY if I even get 6 points (one multiple choice question worth) out of 100. Yep, THAT BAD. I didn’t have a tissue throughout the exam too so I was sniffling and WIPING MY SNOT on my sleeve. Yes, very attractive. Diana was like “Yea, your boyfriend would totally love you right now” which just made me feel worse. *Sigh.

So I went home. I FORGOT I had another class that same day. Stupid quiz section after Physics on Tuesdays. Ugh. I was so irritated because we were suppose to get back our midterms that day and I totally forgot. But hey, I was sick and I just wanted to get the hell home and go to sleep.

Wednesday was not any better. I skipped Chemistry class, telling my friends to cover for me. Thank god I switch clickers off with Sydney, otherwise I would lose clicker points and I CANNOT afford to lose clicker points in that class anymore.  It’s because we sit on the balcony and the machine hates people who sit on the balcony and never likes to accept our clickers. =/ And so I slept most of the day. And I actually forgot my Comm class started at 11:30 and not 12:30 like I initially thought until I was like “wait….me and sydney bowl until 11:30 usually…”. I missed the bus and ended up making it only one minute late to the class. Luckily, there were hecka people late because it was pouring rain and sad. And so we took our midterm. I wasn’t so worried about Comm class because it’s easy to understand and comprehend the shtuff he talks about but it’s just a lot of shtuff. Turns out, I did a lot better than I initially thought. I was hoping for a mid-B, but I actually got a 90%. A low A, but an A nonetheless. (: Anyways, I had work that same day, 2-5 and I was dying the entire time and coughing and sniffling my ass out. And I skipped VSA meeting too which I didn’t really want to do but I had to because because of daylight savings, it’s like, completely dark at 5pm now and I really didn’t want to walk all the way through campus while being sick and unaware of my surroundings when it was so dark out. Maybe in two weeks. So I went home. And slept.

That night my parents made me do this asian sauna thing where you boil lemongrass and put in a little green eucalyptus oil into the water and swirl it around and then you cover yourself with a blanket and steam over the pot. I felt a bit better but I was still congested so I don’t think it worked. I just pretty much sat there sweating my ass off literally. It was a pool of sweat by the end and I had to mop of the floor with my towel :[

Thursday. I cancelled lunch with an old friend whom I haven't seen in foreverrrrr. I felt bad because we planned it about two weeks in advance but I was too sick. I ended up making plans with another friend for a massage.

Matt has been studying massage as a hobby of his for a while, and a few months back, I read a public posting recruiting up people to try his techniques on. Of course I volunteered and it was his birthday present for me =)

Let's just say it was the most amazing experience I've ever had with someone's hands on my body ;] He was completely professional about it, wearing a blindfold and whatnot. I came wearing jeans and a long sleeve but he wanted as much skin baring so I had to borrow a pair of shorts and a cami from Kathryn to shimmy into. And I laid face down on his little curved pillow and covered myself with the sheet thing. It was first just regular rubbing and feeling up and down my back for little bumps of tension and stuff. Apparently I’m super stiff and I had a hard time just relaxing. And then when he applied the pressure with his elbow or hand or whatever (I don’t know because I was facedown), it hurt but it was the kind of good hurt…you know? and then he used this really cool tingly cream over me (it smelled good!) and then pulled out my arms and my legs. It was…just amazing. And by then, I was kind of going in and out of falling asleep. All I remember after that was him putting a towel on me and laying these hot stones on my back and I just passed out. Seriously. He said for half an hour? And when I was semi concious, all I could hear was my phone vibrating. Lol. I had to ask Matt to text back my friends because I was just soo….out of it.

I seriously think that was what made me better because I feel goooooood the next day. Now I just have occasional sniffles and little coughs but my body feels so. much. better. I must take him out for the lunch the next time I see him. ^^

On Friday, it was a girl’s afternoon out filled with bowling and DDR and very horrible three table ping pong. We made a huge ruckus and were really loud but it was very fun and kept my mind off things for a while.

The weekend was good. Sister came up. My parents had a party to go to Saturday night so I went out with my sister and her friends. We had a good time. Dinner and then Dilettante’s. They’re taking me out devirginizing my clubginity when my parents are away in VN. =) I’m excited. I came home and just crashed because alcohol makes me so sleepy and we walked a lot and it was cold outside and so warm underneath my covers.

Today was a quiet day filled with lot’s of baby pictures and cuddling with Tamtam. She’s just adorableeeee now. Her chubchub cheeks and her blowing of raspberries. <3

On the love side of my life, I’ve been really strained lately. Long distance relationships really do suck, no matter how much faith you put into it, hoping it will work out. Things never go as planned right? Anyways, it’s through tough times that friends come through and provide the support you need and comfort you through all the tears you cry. I know I don’t have many close friends but I do love the small circle that I do have. My problems mainly have been petty girl things such as jealousy and pangs of sadness but it’s all due to the fact that I’m here and he’s there. It’s not that I don’t trust him. I really do. But of course, I can’t help feeling the way I do because it’s just hard. But I was able to talk through some of it tonight after being pretty much pressured into it (thanks, person.). Apparently, I’m suppose to tell him everything I feel? I know it sounds pretty “duh” when you write it down but sometimes you’re just scared of losing the person if you reveal to them how much you really care. I didn’t want to. Truthfully, I’ve never been really good with controlling my emotions. I suppress them and hide them away from the people they directly impact. Some people say that jealousy means that you care. If your boyfriend/girlfriend never got jealous, that’s not good. I wonder if he even ever gets jealous. And speaking of showing you care, how do you should you care if you’re in a long distance relationship? (I feel like being Natalie Tran and saying “post your comments at the bottom of this page”. HAH.) Actually, I’m quite creative and I have a million ideas of how I would do it. But for some reason, I doubt he would have any creative ideas. Lol. It’s a million to one in terms of guys like that. And it’s funny to think that the one guy that was creative ended up being a guy that I couldn’t be with. *shrugs. Life is that way I guess.

I had a good weekend honestly. Chocolate + cuteness overload. Thanksgiving this year should be fabulous as well. (:

tonight is my night.

floor rumbling to deep bass murmurs

eardrums shot with penetrating force

sweat mixed cocktails, salty lime stirred bodies

entwined trunks slithering smoothly, skin contact hungry.

seductive whispers “take me home with you “

blacklights highlight fly sights

unsatisfied, sound waves reach out to grab ahold

hands up in a church hallelujah, let yourself go

freefalling into rum-laced nirvana

point of no return

fly.

I WILL SUCCEED

my personality?

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Much of the time you are preoccupied with things of an intensely exciting nature. You need stimulation and variation with all matters pertaining to your life. You want to be regarded as an exciting and interesting personality being able to charm and influence others. You use powerful strategies with predictable outcomes so as to avoid endangering your chances of success or undermining other people’s confidence in you.

 

You don’t really give in. You follow your beliefs and ideals to the bitter end. You are the personification of stubbornness and whatever may transpire, right or wrong, you refuse to compromise or make concessions.

Although you are, deep down, a very caring person, you are very particular in the choice of friends and indeed very demanding at times. You can be most quarrelsome and controversial and it is because of this argumentative trait you can at times explode into open conflict – conflict with even those you may care for and love. It is because of this inherent argumentative streak in you that may have resulted in broken hopes and dreams.

You feel that nobody really appreciates you and this is causing you considerable stress. You feel that you have to sublimate your emotions and this is depressing you no end. You feel that the only way you can resolve this untenable situation is to get away from it all and re-establish your own individuality. Co-operation is very important in your life, but this has not been forthcoming from anyone. No-one seems to care and it is because of this situation that you are finding it increasingly more difficult to let yourself go and as a result you are becoming more and more isolated and even, to some extent, introverted. You are displaying a touchy and an over sensitive personality. Trying to take on the whole world doesn’t help – you need to relax.

Anxiety and a restless antagonism, as a result of unfulfilled emotional needs, has resulted in considerable stress. You are trying to overcome this by working and playing extremely hard – but at all times you have your future in mind. You are a worker and as a result of your inherent enthusiasm you cannot fail.

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oh colorgenics, if only you could see the pain i was going through in physics class. (:

but wow, very true/=

www.goldinuniverse.com

a lost cause.

life is dynamic. it never stops.

and sometime’s you can’t keep up.

lost.

left behind.

swallowed up by your loneliness.

one month thirteen days.

so little time comparative to 1 and a half years.

yet so much can change.

 

i think i’ll go away for a bit.

midterm for physics is tuesday. midterm for communication is wednesday. i have too much on my platter and even though i know that i’m not able to concentrate these few days because of recent events, i’m thinking too much. it’s come to the point where i’m being swallowed up by fictitious tv dramas just so i can forget about what i’m going through. nothing but hollowed eyes and an aching body to come out of that. so. let’s prioritize.

who wants to cry when they can do physics hwk all day |: