stuffed to the brim.

im dyinnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnng.

i’m so sick. my nose is dying. and today i had the pleeeeeasure of sitting next to my cute crush-but-not-a-crush-but-still-he-makes-me-blush (HAPPILY TAKEN YO!) in communications class and i’m wheezing and sniffling and whatnot. god, i’m so embarassed. and in class, we had to pull out our books and i didn’t bring mine so he offered me his book and i’m like freaking out in my head but i said “it’s okay” because i was already sharing with Kenchin next to me. but i was really dying swooning while sniffling and rubbing my nose raw. how nice of him. and whenever he laughs, he laughs through his nose and makes that wheezing sound that is very similiar to sound of a air compressor or a bike pump. y’know that air squezzing sound? yea that’s how how quiet laugh sounds like. super kawaii.

and i swear the anatomy lab room is worst and make me more stuffed up. it must be all the dead bones (and fetal skulls in tubware which makes me think of eating lunch). 

gosh, shawn. thanks so much for making me sick. (: but i hope you’re having a fabulous time on the runway or enjoying the show or whatnot. i miss you much (and thinking of ways to plot your death for giving me this horrible cold) and i’ll see you soo.

 

i’m currently down in portland. it’s a bit past midnight. the baby shower is tomorrow today. we’re having a BBQ and whatnot because it’s going to be 68 degrees! and 75 on sunday! but i’m sick so i’m not allowed to hold any babies (DAMMIT!) ]= but we’re going shopping tomorrow (sunday) and whatnot so i’m pretty syked for this weekend. it’s going to be crowded and fun and now my benadyl is kicking in so im going to sleep.

 

CIAO.

new year’s, clothes, and ghost sex!

alas, it is thursday. which means it is friday tomorrow. which means new year’s is monday! why yes kevin and iz, the best part of new years is rice cakes “ooooohriiiiceeeecakes *mockingly*” 

thanks. lol. 

so apparently it’s the “end of winter season” and all the stores are having sales on clothes and whatnot. i am eagerly awaiting the arrival of my peacoat from ae that i/shawn got for me. lol. yes, i still owe him  half the money so it’s half mine. you can wear it half the time then, hon.  we’ll share xD but in seattle, clearence sale doesn’t matter cuz winter lasts well into february and apparently there MIGHT JUST BE more snow on the way. shitake! it’s already freezingly cold. i actually froze my ass off in the car because my parents stopped by sam’s club and left me in the car cuz i was sleeping and i woke up and was like where the hell am i. yes, kinda disorientated. and the whole diliating my pupils at the optemetrist’s today didn’t help either. it makes EVERYTHING extra blurry. and so i walked out of the clinic all stumbling and stuff (adding to my clumsiness) and squinty. ohmygosh i might have looked extra chinese! =P

i’m listening to clazziquai right now and i think it’s the perfect thing to listen to when the lights are all warming (instead of shockingly flourescent) and the heater is running and you’re all snuggled up in a billion layer of clothes. 

“gentle rain is coming down” ♥

so i read in the newspaper about the lenovo thinkpad W700ds and ITS COMPLETELY AWESOME. it’s like, totally the dream laptop. it has TWO screens and an BLUE-RAY player. oh and 5 USB ports and and like 760 gigs of total memory. and a whole lotta stuff i don’t know what it means but i think it’d be fun to tinker with! xD 

and the last sentence completely cracked me up.

 

” The company says it is aimed at oil and gas explorers, photographers, designers and other PC users who require high performance, but Lamborghini, Hummer and Harley-Davidson owners might also appreciate it. ” –NY Times, 1/22/09

it’s like. almost 4K. ohmygosh!

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anyways. i have this horrible cancker sore thats RIGHT ON MY LIP. it’s all pulsing and stuff too. like a volcano ready to explodddeeee. if i bit it really hard it would probablyooze RED FLAMING BLOOD LAVA (: gross, i know. it’s pretty devestating because i can’t find my favorite chapstick anywhere and my lips are cracking and gross. grr.

okay. shower then grey’s anatomy. it’s going to be juicccccaaaay. bailey and derek face-off! mer der kissface! did you know they’re quote “grooming” unquote Arizona to be a love interest for Callie? i mean, arizona does not seem like a closet lez/bi. and mark and lexie, more sex! izzie and denny, sex no more! wow, grey’s is downhill but cross your fingers for more “deep” drama.

i do like the on-death-row guy though. he really plays the part well. and if he will die anyway, just let him give his damn organs to the little boy! 

okay. shower!

wii love clothes and korean music.

i got paaaaaaaaaaaaaants. and new boooooooooooooots.

im way ecstatic. i’ve been longing to buy my own pair of boots for a while now. my old ones huuuuurt. and they make my feet look 3x bigger. horrendous. and i got grey courderoys and brown pants. more like, exchange them. but yes! im happy.

yesterday night, we (my&theparents) went to an old friends house and had dinner. i played wii fit! using that awesome balance board thing and it was way way way fun. i suck at hula hooping but im amazing at ab work out and flexibility via yoga. heeeeeeecks yea. man, i wish i could get it. but riiiight, in a million years. i have spent too much money on my debit card. speaking of that, i just totally forgot my answer to my ID Shield question to online banking. >< fuck… i’ll have to get it emailed to me now. jeez…

 & then..today, we went to another friend’s house (yea yea. my parents have too many friends) and i got to see my two favorite little kiddos. this family is like. family to us. they’ve been our friends since i was born (yes, i have baby pictures to prove it) and it’s always great to hang out at their aweeeeeeeesome home. their fireplace is way nice. and they’re nice big screen tv. and and and…i had pizza. heh. too much seeing people this weekend. but it’s nice anyways. always have a good time.

i also have a song on repeat. i just discovered it…yesterday? and i downloaded the whole album too.

brown eyed girls. how come.

 

it’s super addicting. a def. dance track added to my playlist of korean favorites. lol. but i must admit that the video is a little disappointing and i mean, the rapping part with the gun? ohmygosh, made me laugh. i love how they “gangster” up the rapper with a gun. they’re like, a better version of the Wonder Girls. though WG has better dance moves.

Oh. & I’m downloading Jay Chou’s new album (Capricorn?) Monday because I wonder what all this Jay Chou hype is about. ROFL. Speaking of that. I was reading Wong Fu’s blog. and manohman that Jay Chou vs. Wang Lee Hom was hilaaaaaaaaaarious. That picture with the blood splatter spots? God, i swear i had to pee from laughing too hard. & what’s the ost ironic is that I’ve had that argument//talk with a friend. Lee Hom versus Jay Chou. toooooo funny.

[: enjoy your night.

tonight in seattle.

sharp winds harshly slice through leaf scattered lawns

blades of grass become slender green gymnasts doing bridges

as they bend over backwards, head over heels.

a cold draft weaves past layers of scarf on jacket on shirt on shirt

invisible frigid hands gently glide underneath layers, caressing skin to the tune of goosebumps

a chilling draft, it weaves in and out between scarf, jacket, sweater, shirt.

a thickening black coated silence covers the sky, revealing nothing to the one looking up

a bashful moon has yet to grace us with its golden presence

you should…hold on tighter to umbrella stems as gales play tug of war

and rain pushes sideways, disregarding laws of gravity.

this weather, an angry lover.

hell hath no fear like a woman’s scorn.

 

 

 

 

it’s cold.

oh yes yes!

guess who finished with 15 minutes to spare. hell yessssssss.

end of the quarter is here and i just finished my ever-long and tedious and mucho stressful reasrch project. total it was like two thousand some words. took me.. let’s see..*counts fingers* 10 hours. wow my teacher was right, he told us it would take ten hours. but yea. it’s due at 1pm today and i just turned it in. i must say thank you to…window’s media player. it helped me a lot with bass-pumping music and encouragement.

ohmann do i feel gross and unappetizing (not that i’m ever..appetizing..do u really wanna eat me? lol). i woke up, called my boyfriend to wish him good luck on exams, and then got right to work on my research project. yes, i skipped burhsing my teeth, showering, changing clothes, and actually, i’m still sitting in a pile of my blankets that i wrapped around me since i got out of bed cuz it was tood amn cold to leave them behind. my hair feels gross since i showered yesterday morning meaning i’ve gone..30 hours without showering…UGH. and i can feel all teh gross plaque on my teeth and the buildup on my tongue, and oh don’t i paint a delightful picture of moi? (=

well i have to complain first about this weather. what is this, february? it’s freaking cold outside. i have the heater running in the house AND in the room. oh man if my parents were home they’d KILL me for wasting electricity but i CANNOT deal with this coldness. it’s JUNE. dammit. i hear it’ll be okay tomorrow though. HOPEFULLY. though it oesn’t matter cuz i have effing finals tomorrow so i’ll be stuck indoors for like…5 hours. *sigh.

that’s next. Finals are tomorrow. Accounting and Chemistry. Today is actually study day for me but after this I will go eat and THEN i will study. Cuz who can study with an empty stomach? I don’t know but they’re crazy. BUt yea, study…I should really start cramming cuz I KNOW i need to. Just for Chemistry though cuz I find Accounting to be extremely easy. OH. NO. I JUST realized as I wrote that I haven’t taken a quiz for accounting that was due last sunday. Oh. fuck. I wonder if I can get an extension…AHHH

Nothing new besides it’s the end of the school year and I start working at Legacy House next Tuesday and so summer will probably go by pretty quick. Okay, gotta eat!