not sad at all.

they say, love brings out the best in people.

but it also brings out the worst.

look at me. point proven. i think the path i’m going on is self-destructive.

not good.

i’ll probably alienate half the ones that matter most to me with my obnoxious self-loathing and insecurity before i even have a chance to say i’m sorry.

emo morning. who wants to read emo stuff.

let me eat my chicken cajun rice tv dinner in peace while i prepare for my future to fail.

 

CAR !

i’m regressive in my parking skills. i have yet to fully comprehend how to parallel park and i get distracted by neon signs saying “YARD SALE” . i also get my own hands twisted together when i turn.

and the neighbors either think

1) i’m a hoot to watch or

2) i’m a menace to society and call the cops on me

no lie, a sheriff was drove by us at 8pm in the neighborhood. and trust me, you NEVER see cops in my neighborhood unless someone was shot.

and the vietnamese people across the street heckle and say “i give u 10 points for that” and raise their Heinekens in a cheer. and the guys my age walking around in their baggy pants give me thumbs up [yay!] and the other people closely watch me to make sure they pounce if i scratch their FOB-ified honda civics so they can get some money.

we also drove out the ezells by my house down by the market. and it was hilarious because i was pulling into a parking spot and i was slowly backing up and pulling in and really close to the car and this fat lady in the ezells [dinner?] poked her head out of the front door and said something and watched me like a hawk. she had an old ass car too so whateverrrr lady. i’m more scared of scratching MY car.

——-on a different note.

i’m really flattered when people remember me after meeting me just once. like if they remembered my name or something completely random about me. i think my random comments really stand out sometimes.. [:

& the dawg daze dance party was NOT amazing as it was meant to be? “there’s only like 5 people dancing. it’s really funny.” but then again roxanna called me at 11:40-ish so maybe it wasn’t crackin` yet xD

and funny enough, i already know what to get my family for christmas. and my friends too. i guess having money does make you think generously. [:

stumble upon?

so naturally, i was logging into my account and on my dashboard, the little visual chart thingy was going off the da SHIZZLE for today’s # of views.

eh? of course that spiked my curiosity because i usually get a steady number of views and it never really goes crazy. so i clicked it to see what was going on and there was this thing called “stumble upon” that referred people to my blog. apparently, someone put my blog as one of their connection thingys so people would go from their blog to my blog.

well thanks?

tonight has been quite blase`.  i am still working at the store. worked from 7am today. will wrok til 10pm. for no pay. yes, it’s child labor but what can i do ]:

at least i’ve been eating a lot to make up for it.

i really like tv dinners.

eating pandas.

pandas are cute, pandas are yummy.

pandas that have chocolate in their tummy.

one panda, two panda, three panda four,

soon enough it’s panda galore,

they play soccer, they row a boat.

if they drowned, they could probably float.

because they are filled with 11 percent

of saturated fat, such a delicious scent.

end of the box, now i am glum.

but alas, look at that! there’s still a crumb.

<3

can you hear me now?

Yes I can but I’ll pretend I don’t.

Seriously, whaaa?  I have the best friends I swear. Love them much but sometimes they just tick you off. But then again, it’s kind of like “taste of your own medicine” right? Considering how shitty my phone etiquette is. Telling people and then never calling them, I mean. My voicemail probably starts sounding like a lie the 3^rd time through because it says I’ll call them back ASAP when my as soon as possible is two days later. But the person didn’t leave a voicemail! I don’t get annoyed when people don’t call me back. At least I leave an urgent message or something if I really needed them. Or called them 10 times in a row like a certain person did to me.

Anyways, yes. Phone calling is tricky for me even when it shouldn’t be.  JUST PICK UP THE PHONE HAO. That’s all I need to do.  How easy.

We went car hunting today ALL DAY. It was probably the most exasperating tiring annoying stressful thing I have done yet so far. AND IT WASN’T A CAR FOR ME EITHER. My parents wanted to take advantage of the Cash for Clunkers program thingy that is ending this Monday. WAY TO PROVE THAT MY PARENTS ARE FLAKY PROCRASTINATORS. We wanted to trade in our Quest [which has a value of basically…2K] because then it’d be a good deal since we could trade it in with a value of $4,500. And as expected, a lot of the dealers don’t even do the program anymore because they’re backlogged with paperwork for it. So my parents wanted somewhat of a nice car like that Lexus humpback one…I don’t know what model it is but it’s the SUV one. But they don’t have the moola for it. So of course being the Asians we are, we go for the knockoffs! Toyota Venza was number once, followed by the Nissan Murano, and then the Toyota RAV4. But really, we wanted the Venza. So after calling many many many many many…many places, we found the Toyota in AUBURN still does the program and that they still had Venzas. A lot of Venzas. I think we saw 6 on their lot? Well, typical Mom and Dad. We weren’t able to GET ONE. Mom doesn’t like the color of the cheapest one and the others were too expensive and Dad wants GPS when I think navigation is a total joke because it adds approx. 2K to the price of the vehicle but you buy it as an attachment at stores for…most expensive, $500? RIDICULOUS. Anyways, we ended up driving ALL THE WAY TO BELLEVUE for the stupid Nissan dealer there only to find they sold their last okay-priced Murano [35K] and only had their upper-packed Murano’s left [41K]. Okay, too much. Bye bye dealership. No we don’t want to leave our name but we’ll take your sales card just to be nice.

Car salesman: What color do YOU want?

Me: I don’t care really.

Car salesman:  WOW. A female that doesn’t have a particular color choice? Amazing.

I DON’T CARE. I mean, if they were the same price and the only thing that separated them were the color, than it would boil down to color preference. But I’d really just want a good car, good price, looks decent. But then again, I wouldn’t want a color like pastel purple right? *shrugs. I’m quite happy with my Maxima.

So then we went to a family friend’s dinner thing where my dad drank and my talked about having kids with all the other moms and I was shoved in the corner with little kids that I didn’t want to play with. And so I called up my friends to talk and was rejected numerous times. One rejection. One hang up. One busy.

THANK GOD FOR KENNETH CORDOBA. [:

Thanks for the bags of YUMMMMMMY cookies from Guam and the Gelly Roll pens {MY FAVORITE!] even if they WERE just in black. =D And for keeping me from sliding into a depression-like state of lack of friends while keeping me in touch with my reality of non-popularity at the same time. It’s a fine line to keep, but somehow you did it. Haha. And it’s always nice to talk about relationships and differences and similiarities and life and school and us and whatnot. ^^ Thankszzzz buddy.

And then I GOT TO DRIVE MY PARENTS HOME. Only because my dad was a bit drunk of course. But I drove nonetheless. I was a bit shocked because it was pitch black but hey, who cares.

My dad drove out of the driveway and then he turned to me and said “You wanna drive home?”

*insert joyous woop here.*

JK. I played it cool of course. “Okay.”

They were mightily impressed with my driving home and I even parked okay in my hella tight driveway! My dad was like “what’d you do in Iowa. Drive and sleep?” haha. Now he’s going to teach me how to park on hills [it is SEATTLE afterall.] and parallel park [WHICH I DREAD.]

So yes, it was an okay night. I was hoping to volunteer at Night Market but I don’t mind now. [:

We were meant to go camping but we ended up not going because one of the people who was going with us accidentally chainsawed his leg because he was chopping trees. Same guy that ended up throwing the dinner party. Haha. He showed me leg and I was like “COOL.” And he laughed.

I mean, dude. It was a CHAINSAW.

Crazy.

treats of summer.

“gimme my hot cheetos!” screams the girl down the street.

i love it!

raccoon platoon.

my house is under attacked by masked bandits.

oh yes, the infamous raccoon has hit the streets of S. Seattle. Particularly, 117th Street South. And boy, it’s cute.

so we put our cat food in a cat litter bucket box thing with a lid because it’s so much easier than leaving the whole bag in the closet. anyways, we put it outside on our deck and whenever we feed the cat, we just open the lid and pour a cup into his bowl thing. but this las week, we’ve noticed that the bucket is dragged out into the middle of our deck and dumped out. it’s the weirdest thing. until about 2 days ago, my dad saw it.

it = a raccoon.

when he told me, he said that it was 3x the size of our cat and looked like a fox. that’s because i dont think vietnamese people have raccoons…

but anyways, so i saw it tonight as i was eating dinner alone in the dining room table. and it’s 1) big and 2) very cute.

i ran to the sliding door but it ran away and i opened the door and peeked out and my black cat (who is actually pretty big as well) came running up to me WHICH TOTALLY MADE ME SCREAM because i thought i was going to be attacked by the damn raccoon or something.

anyways, so my dad wants to shoot it and i want to keep it as a pet and my mom just wants to see it. so we’ll see what happens. (:

“squee!”, said the lusty-eyed fanatic.

i don’t know. i found this to be utterly adorable. i mean, pouty Tablo ! RAWR I JUST WANNA EAT YOU UP* makes me pout too. pouty face friends ! (okay…i’m going just a bit nutso here.) 

anyways, Epik High’s new album, Map The Soul was released the 27th. i wasn’t even aware of it. apparently, they didn’t get to promote it as much as their previous albums. listening to previews, i’d have to say that there’s definitely more vocals in this album than their previous lovescream (which i absolutely loved because it was basically dedicated to love and heartbreak and whatnot). the only reason i found out that there was a new release is because there is also an MV out for their first single off the album, Map The Soul.

It’s alright. It’s kind of their trademark rapping and background light music. I didn’t find it standing out much from some other songs. I found the MV to be confusing but the pictures of the war and the Earth and nuclear plants were quite moving though. I actually went to their website for their promotion activities. Apparently, they’re the first in in the music business to actually do their own website and stuff which surprises me because american artists do that all the time? 

But yea, go listen to the album. It’s definitely Epik High and who doesn’t love Epik High. They’re seriously not overrated as much as you’d like to think they are. 

& isn’t it totally disappointing to hear that all three members of Epik High have gfs? I mean, it’s not like we fangirls ever had  a chance, but y’know. maybe. kinda. sorta. haha sikes. im happily taken even if he’s not tablo. [:

www.mapthesoul.com 

[their promotion website]

http://mapthesoul.com/blog.html?blog=tablo

[Tablo's blog. Dude, I just love to look at the pictures. I can't read Korean. Haha]

 

———-

*Why is it when people like to describe stuff that is “cute”, they like to say things like “so cute I could eat you up” or further reference the person/thing as food items such as “come here sugarbuns” and “cupcake face” or something. Is this just an American thing? Is this why we’re fat? Because every freaking second, we’re thinking about food? Haha. And it does bring up the serious thought that, if you saw a baby that was way adorable, why would you want to eat it. Does it turn into a cake that you just want to stick your fork into? Because, babies aren’t cakes. And you really shouldn’t be thinking of eating human beings unless you’re German. SHAH!

 

point proven. literally. oh tablo…. <3<3

bi bim bob.

 

 

 

 

 

i’ve compiled a short list of things i have learned this week. or “learned”.

• people do things they don’t mean to do. subconciously. it’s just part of their nature. and if you hate it, then it sucks for the person because i hardly doubt they will/can change. as the saying goes “it’s part of who you are”. so if you think the relationship or friendship, or whatever ship you’re in, is worth it, then take them as a whole. stop analyzing every little miniscule shit thing about them.
• i may be more emotional than i thought.
• i need more girl friends. definitely. but i always seem to find something wrong with girls… and apparently, people do notice me when i don’t think so. and they talk about me too. whisper whisper. 
• chemistry is actually not that hard. it’s just a lot to remember and i get mixed up with equations and facts. but it’s all very logical from there (in terms of calcualtions and whatnot)
• if you want someone to know something, tell them straight out. don’t just stand there and hope they read your signals or something. or even worst, hope they “eventually” have some brain attack and realize/understand what you mean. they won’t. humans are dense. (i am NOT saying that i am NOT. i am more dense than most humans.)
• make sure you take doxycycline with some food because otherwise you will feel like you’re going to throw up and blame it on your chemistry final when it is actually because you only had a cup of coffee and a nectarine for breakfast
• silences don’t need to be awkward. they can be everything you need and fill all the spaces in between two people. silences can be everything you need to say. 
• spring is coming. just look at those cherry blossoms bloom.

 

last final tomorrow. csc one today. did fine. i’m hoping he’ll bump me up to a 4.0 or that this homework will help because im borrrrrrrrderline. and i have perfect attendance in that class too. gosh ! chem final today was easier than i thought. though when i got home and looked over notes, i realized i did some wrong. but y’know. screw that. im free from chemistry !

had lunch with my sweetheart today. apparently i clearly smelled like korean food and that my coat absorbs food smells like crazy. maybe kenneth cordoba just has a very strong nose than can pick out foods like a real conniseur. gosh. and just because i listen to korean music doesn’t mean i know what food i’m eating. it’s not like korean songs sing about bi bim bob. but it was amazingly great anyways.  man, i’m craving some banh xeo.

 

 

my mom can make sexier banh xeo than that, peepz. haha. i just told her i wanted to eat that this weekend and she’s like. “it’s tuesday and you’re already planning for the weekend?!” yes, i like to plan ahead mom. especially for dinners. yummy yummy.

 

oh and yesterday, i had the most fabulous time at Gameworks! i soooooooo wish we had more time to play, but beggars can’t be choosers. i’m running on limited time with him! T____T  this is going to suck.

 

what else is new. i have a stalker in my life. if you are reading this, PLEASE STOP CALLING ME. I AM TOO SWEET TO TELL YOU TO STOP. I WANT TO BE YOUR FRIEND BUT WE HAVE BOUNDARIES! *sniff sniff. jk. kinda. sorta. confused. *zit pops up on face* aghhhhhhhhhhh.

okay. must get some ZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZs.

 

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natalie’s communitychannel video viewers are just getting more ridiculous everyday.  pornomusicslashcomment is NOT that much fo a big deal yo. and those your mom jokes are seriously getting old. it’s only funny from her and her schmexy schmexy accent. just a small sidenote.

mais nourriture, tu es mon amoureux.

 

amazing i still remember [a bit] of french.

after meticulously looking for jalapeno berry gelato in seattle. i am was disappointed to say that it does not exist. there IS a strawberry jalapeno gelato at a place in Fremont but that’s too far…

places i need to go the next time i’m skipping, preferably when it’s not icy/cold/when im freezing my ass off. and when my bank account starts looking healthier (:

• The Chocolate Box near Pike Place. 
  • Heard they have amazing everything chocolate.
• Procopio Gelateria near the Waterfront//Pike Place
  • Haven’t been here for their gelato yet so definately must try.
• Le Panier, Pike Place
  • Croissaints du jour? Pommes. Framboise. Fraise! Oui Oui Je t’adore déjà Le Panier.
• The Confectional, Pike Place
  • CHEESECAKE.
• Shy Giant Frozen Yogurt, Pike Place
  • Marionberry smoothies? I’ve only had a scone in that flavor. and they do mixed fro-yo too! ohmygod!

You know what I just realized? Heck, all these places are mainly located around Pike Place. Man Oh Man. I might as well just skip a whole day and go there and splurrrrrrrrge considering all my money goes towards food anyways..

Sissy just called, they got a new van. that means i have officially inherited her Maxima. woot woot. now all i  need to do is to get my brother to drive it back up here so i can start learning how to drive. and for nicer weather to come on because i cannot drive in rain when i can’t drive when the sun’s shining anyways.

the week is over. its a nice day. im tired as hell so i basically will spend my weekend sleeping. most likely. then next week, much more stress with csc hwk and whatnot. yay! at least my chem exam went well and im anxious to know what i got. 

 

exictement! 

okay.

now for a nap.