more for less.

I DON’T GET IT.

being a girl, i do love wearing girly flirty stuff.

but can you PLEASE tell me why a  thong costs more than boy shorts sometimes.

or why denim shorts can be more expensive than denim jeans.

or a miniskirt more than pants.

i mean, there’s less material, so shouldn’t be cheaper?

tanks and camis are generally cheaper than whole tees.

and i’m not saying that the price ranges because of the brand and where you get it.

i’m saying WITHIN one store.

and WHY OH WHY ARE G-STRINGS MORE EXPENSIVE THAN THONGS?

guy fail. 101.

i did it! i finally called him up and talked to him. i grew a backbone!

haha. so that korean guy that gave me flowers are graduation that i was ranting on about? the one that was my “crush but not really a crush but crush if i was single” guy? i called him. after weeks of evasive manuevers.

ahaha im so lame.

the conversation didn’t go horribly as i thought. well, it was horrible on my part. i kept laughing and not knowing what to say and it probably felt like a interview or something because i was completely combarding him with questions and then i ranted about my parents? wow, im pretty weird.  i mean, who randomly just rants to some guy about her parents. and i actually say something like “as much as i dislike my parents sometimes, i do really love them”.

i mean, uhhh..i just told the guy i love my parents. who does that. god what the hell hao. ><”

anyways, so i guess ill hang out with him for lunch or someting the next time i get a chance too. i owe the guy that much for his graduation gift and standing him up for lunch and THEN not calling him.

i am horrible with guys. why do they like me. lol. im a freakign twit and so so stupid. o_O” i just talk incessantly and then i profess that i love math! OMG. YEA. I TOLD HIM I LOVE MATH. AND THEN I PROCEEDED TO SAY THAT I SUCK AT IT BECAUSE I GOT A 3.0.

he’s probably like “uhhhh wtf.” and was hella anxious to hang up on me. but he was so cute on the phone with his “pardon me?” and whatnots. =D

haha.

well. until whenever. i’m off to play scrabble.

the skinny on skinny jeans.

i have a milestone to proclaim!

i know i’m really skinny with literally no curves so i’ve been avoiding the latest fashion trnd and hiding under my covers. that is, i’m talking about the skinny jeans. i know people say that “oh, skinny jeans are the best for people who don’t have fat thighs and are slim” but you know what? i’m too skinny for skinny jeans. when i wear them, i feel skinnier just because they clamp onto my stick calves and acentuate the fact that i absolutely have no jiggle fat. it’s kind of sad. whenever i flip through the racks at stores now, they’re 90% jeans that start big at the top and go small at the bottom. like an inverted triangle. and then what the heck is this “EXTREME SKINNY” jeans. i mean, i absolutely ENVY girls that look fabulous in those. which is pretty much 87% of the asian girls at my school. i much perfer to toss on my sweatshirt and jeans-that-still-fit-me-from-seventh-grade and hide in the corner because they’re so pretty. i still don’t understand what Shawn sees in me anyways.

anyways, skinny jeans are skinny-enhancing. hence this is why i have not worn them ever. /=  but on the opposite end, my mom tries to stuff me in baggy clothing because apparently that makes me look like i have a bit more fat on me. but making me swim in my clothes and feel lost. right.

but last saturday, i bought my first pair of skinny jeans. an aeropostale size 0* pair. it fits snugly and it doesn’t suck on my lower leg like a leech so it’s not TOO bad. the only reason i bought them is because i would like to buy a pair of rainboots for my upcoming walks around campus for school [it's Seattle afterall. rain season starts ...now.] and i could easily tuck them into my boots. it’s much better than trying to stuff my normal flare pants into there. and plus, they were cheap so…why not. they aren’t that bad. my boyfriend says they look fine. haha, sad that i use him as a judge right? but then again, he would know what looks good on me and he’s pretty brutally honest. “hao, your boobs are flat” “thanks hon, i know.” i actually kind of love them because i can wear any shirt with them and they look fine. now all i need are converses and a huskies sweatshirt and i will officially be a non-individual and conform with the masses.

by the way, this is me being daring. sad right? i should write a college essay on this. what is the more daring thing you have done and why? i bought skinny jeans.

hehe.

*size 0. there was a line from a book that i have where a girl ponders who made a size of clothes that says that body ceases to exist. i will find the quote and post is up but it really made me feel …i don’t know. kind of empty? a size where you end up ceasing to exist. a zero. a size where the body turns into nothing. zero.

..so what about size 00? ]:

everything [incl. a condom comm.!] +2NE1’s review.

no blogging a week? point proven to my friends that i do NOT plan to spend the summer just blogging. =]

nothing special has happened in the whole week. besides a few disastrous spendings on my visa card [two very similiar orders from American Eagle, both with flip flops to take advantage of the free shipping, the second placed only after realizing that i had a 20% off discount that i could have used but didn't + a very expensive mecahnism for the cooler at the store] which placed it down to 80 dollars to spend.

it’s very hot today. and i was going to call up aly to see if she was busy and if not, we should go swimming. but i decided to spend it sleeping and reading the new issue of Wired magazine. quite mundane don’tcha think? i also studied briefly for my written test for driving [which i'll be taking tomorrow!] and hopefully passing it as well.

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i can now write about 2ne1’s new mini album which i illegally downloaded [don't act like you don't do that.]

final verdict? it’sokay. (:

my favorite is definately stay together just because it showcases their vocals a little more and doesn’t exactly have a consistantly annoying background beat unlike pretty boy. pretty boy though is actually an okay song. CL’s rapping is exceptional, coyly inserting beyonce references into the song. let’s go party has a catchy tune but unlike what the title says, it doesn’t get me into a dancing mood unlike fire which has a stronger beat to move the body. i don’t care is their new single and all i can say is that it’s so cute when they do the waving hands thing in their dances when they say care-eh-eh-eh-ehhh. [: lollipop is old news and we all know how annoying that song was anyways.

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during this week, i have also successfully navigated the web phenomenon known as AMAZON. we cleared out our garage last weekend and i’m selling a few old nintendo “collectible” games for my brother. only ten dollars each. i was hoping for something more but y’know, money is money and you can’t complain. i’ve also managed to clear out some stuff on craigslist. woot. i’m also constantly checking the job listings but i think i’m giving up on that considering i’d only be able to work about a month after iowa since school starts…sometime near the end of september.

uw advising is this thursday and friday~! excitement. i’m staying over in one of the halls overnight too. i don’t think my parents know that yet. but they will soon. i already paid for it and it’s nonrefundable (but i dont think my parents would care. if they didn’t want me to stay over, i would not be staying over). of course, sydney and i set it up so we’d be able to go at the same time because we fear not knowing anyone. but a part of me wants to make new friends and get to know some new people (afterall, it IS college right?) hence the whole staying overnight thing. and plus, it starts at 12pm on thursday til 8:30pm and then starts at 8am the next day…so i would rather just stay over.

what if everyone hates me and thinks i’m weird? shut up, hao’s head. =D see? i’m already fretting over it as if it’s the first day of school… and i’m also losing my mind slowly.

also, what makes a guy mature? apparently, i turned down a guy because he’s IMMATURE and my boyfriend is MATURE. hence the guy asked me “what makes your boyfriend mature” and my answer was a lame “he doesn’t do gangster signs for fun, laugh at fart jokes, and joke with his friends when they can see a girl’s pink bra through the back of her thin tshirt”. i think i’m lying about the latter. he probably would joke with his friends if the girl wearing the bra was a hot blonde /slash/ taylor swift lookalike. *sigh..

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i love how humans are so naturally curious. police sirens and anbulance wailings tempt us to look out the window. i’m wondering why theres cop cars the block up from our house. the ambulance and the fire truck already left so i know it’s not some kind of emergency but the cop car(s?) are still there. and i really don’t want to crane my neck out from the deck to watch because i’m blind as a bat especially at night.

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I”M SO EXCITED TO TAKE MY WRITTEN TEST. I JUST HOPE I DON’T FAIL.

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IT’S A GIRL !

my sister just came back from the doctor after checking the sex of the baby.

I’m going to have a niece!

ahhh, i must go online shop for the baby shower. and omg I can finally splurge on baby girl’s stuff! cuteness! omg!

yayayayayyayaya awesommmmmmmmmmmmmmmeness.

2009: beautiful is, indeed, still IN

I was reading an article on MSN.com regarding how the to “stay beautiful on a tight budget“. I know I know, so vain. And it’s not like I do anything in the first place. But i was just intrigued about what they had to say. Maybe something about killing my horrendous skin ><”.

But what I found out really surprised me was the fact that the beauty industry is pretty much thriving in this economic downfall. Lipstick is selling like crazy and women refuse to give up their makeup, pedis and manis, and hair appointments. And an excuse that was given for the increase for demand of beautification is that :

“And for over-40 women, looking good when jobs are tight may actually be a business decision: As pressure increases, so does the need to seem totally on your game. ”

Uhm, are you serious? What the hell does makeup have to do with being “totally on your game” in the business world. I know I’m that naive towards the whole “being attractive opens doors for you in life” notion. I did a whole paper on it in English class last quarter. And got an A on it. I understand that women need to be prim, proper, attracitve, and smart to gain promotions and break the so-called glass ceiling. But it’s so sad to know that the world is so shallow and women who may be less pretty but smarter than the girl next to her, may end up losing. It reminds me of Matilda (oddly enough) when the car saleman’s wife says to the teacher something along the lines of “I chose looks. You chose looks. And look where that got me. I am married to a handsome successful saleman and you teach bratty little kids all day”

Okay. Bad metaphor. But I mean, you can be pretty and a genius and ugly and a genius. But you’re sitll a genius. And wouldn’t a company want a genius rather than someone to just look at? Unless you’re hiring salespeople or marketers or models or something. Yep.

halloween day bi-polarness.

happy halloween everyone.

it’s finally on Friday this year and everyone is out partying and trick-or-treating or just having fun doing whatever. me?

i’m actually not feeling too well. i had a long day. it felt long. and tiring. and wet. and cold. and just overall a flatline day. punctuated by a few splendid moments where my heartbeat rate rose a few times but overall, pretty dismal.

1) i feel disgusted with myself. i went to the doctors today for my 3:00pm appointment and i had no eaten ANYTHING the whole day. from my 6am wakeup time to that appointment. nothing. nada. and the scale proved it. 96 pounds.. NINETY SIX FUCKING POINTS. i mean, i’m wasting away. but what’s interesting is that i don’t have an APPETITE. and afterwards, i called up mom and was like “mom. im going to go go grab something to eat at the restaurant.” which automatically translated to “mom. i’m going to hang out with a whole bunch of friends in chinatown” apparently which made her fucking pissed and told me to *ahem* “get my ass to the store this instant”. so much for eating a full meal. ended up picking up a few pastries to nibble on, but by the time i reached the store. i had lost my appetite. and yes, i’m slightly freaking out right now. i don’t want to take a shower because i dont wanna see my body. yes, i’m demoralized. i’m actually reading on tips to gain weight. i need to start a regiment. i need to stop saying need and start doing..

2) halloween was fine. i was disappointed this year to see that less people dressed up than last year. way to conservative. times like this, i wish i was back to Garfield where you would hold costume contests in classes and win prizes and have fun in school. Afterall, it’s Halloween. it comes once a month right? i WAS satisfied with my late-attempt at a costume though. figured i’d dress up as Minnie like i did for Spirit Day, Garfield. i have no pictures to post though cuz i took it off before  i had my doctor’s appt. funny, ‘cuz people actually noticed.

3) i can’t imagine how fast girls are growing up. it seems like every year, freshman girls are more eager to push the limits of their sexuality and see how far they can get. it’s just…slutty. i was downtown waiting for the bus, and this gaggle of girls were dressed up and they couldn’t have been even in high school (considering one of them wore a middle school emblazoned zip-up, unzipped of course). short short dress, thigh-high fishnets//stockings with box on them that make me think of things a girlfriend would wear to turnon her boyfriend. i couldn’t even tell what she was. it was a dorothy-like dress crossed with…princess..crossed with..gothic girl? i mean, you’ve taken the fun out of halloween by dressing as something that’s not..something. what are you parents thinking? and even a parent let their daughter wear that, what is the GIRL thinking. i know you’re trying to think you’re all powerful and seductive and just…attractive when you wear it, hon. i know how it feels. i wore a short skirt today too. but i went with my better judgement and pair it with three layers of socks. i know you see people staring and we all know we secretly love it even though we don’t admit we see it, but what does that say about you? what’s going through that man’s mind in the corner is not “wow, that’s a smart pretty girl that i can imagine being successful in the future” but “i’d tap that.” basically. basically. basically. i remembered when i went through that phase. changing clothes on the bus. putting on heels like it make me feel taller and sexier….. but i don’t know about that anymore. i’d like to stop focusing on what i want people to thinking of myself and instead, think of how i feel about myself.

i’m reading this book. it’s good. it’s sad. it’s called Perfect Girls, Starving Daughters. I’m going be in the corner at school reading with my sweatshirt hood up now. that’s how into it i am. it’s just. eerie. skinny girls. fat girls. their self-esteem issues. thank god for my parents when i was growing up. but yet, i’m still influenced today.

wow. man. i’m…feeling desperate tonight. i’m awfully tired. i think it’s the lack of calories. i want to go to sleep but it’s only 9pm and if i sleep now, i’ll probably wake up later in the night, thus screwing the whole “get a good night rest” advice that i should take from guy-who-is-a-friend-but-i-forgot-to-ask-him-his-name-but-he-was-very-nice. i have SATs tomorrow. good luck to me. i should need it considering i failed today’s math test. yep. yep. i feel lonely..

what. a. day.

 i hope everyone is enjoying their night and if you run out of candy, i suggest that you buy more next time because those little kids really do look forward to halloween. it’s the only day you dress up and get free candy for it. trick or treat. and don’t give them crappy mints or worse, a toothbrush. god. imagine you were a kid again. how would you feel? so make their night. give them something to smile about. =)

a jerk with a crooked nose and extra love handles please

so i was online doing the usual stuff [that is, shopping eBay for smurfs and buying an anaconda on the black market] when i ended up in an asian teenage-girl dominated forum. asian because it was filled with  >< , >>, <<, T_T” type smileys and teenage-girl because it was also filled with OHMYGOD’s and lots and lots of hearts and …of course, half-naked guy picture posts.

 

…half naked guys because the threads were to answer a question posted. it was something along the lines [more like, exactly along the lines] of “Your ideal guy”

and i mean, it was like i was being sucked into a vortex of endless girl-talk and i could already hear the screaming and arguing and the squeals of delight file transferring of pictures of male celebrities. with this site being of the asian variety such as soompi or something, the male celebrities in this case aren’t brad pitt or josh hartnett [is he still hot?] but ones like…

 

…

 

i don’t know my asian hotties list because i’ve actually never given it a thought. but. i do like..shiwon from super junior. *ahem. =D and … er. i guess ally just told me about daniel henney and he’s quite lovely. and i like joo ji hoon of Goong and. uhm. i guess a new one would be wang lee hom. he WAS pretty sexy in Lust, Caution..

let’s go back the the site [as much as i hate to, *shudders*] and get some excerpts! beware: extremely girlish behavior coming up next. puke bowl advisory.

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Hmm…my ideal Asian guy look:
-Japaneses
-Honk Kong fashion
-handsome
-artsy
-smart
-the typical Asian man hair (longish)
-dress hip-hopish/classic (like the dudes Hana Yori Dango-Rui)
-the models that appear on touch or milk
-drives a sport ccar jk
..that is all i can think of for know…

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WTF IS HONK KONG FASHION. Lol. I know I know, just a typo…And Japaneses? Err…. way to like, exclude the other asians. okay, the artsy smart handsome things i get. And oh yea, Rui from Hana Yori Dango IS pretty sizzlin’ but not in the way that I think most girls would like (aka, looks). I think it’s his charming personality (as seen in the drama) that enhances his attractiveness. His looks are just …an accessory. Not a necessity .(as I’ve joked with my boyfriend about how he’s an accessory. jk!) . back to the thing…WHAT IS A MODEL THAT APPEARS ON TOUCH OR MILK!?

 

rui. squeeeeee~!

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im a guy but no to kangta, yes to gdragon.

yes to lee seung gi
yes to jang dong gun
yes to wonbin
yes to me.

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ROFL. THIS IS CRACCCKED ME UP.

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An ideal asian guy look.. I’ve always been super attracted to guys with..
*pale flawless skin, hahaha ’tis true!
*a lighter shade of hair colour? a honey brown imo is gorgeous ;]
*slender and tall body

 

 

 

Mmm..

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Mmm..Pale flawless skin reminds me of Edward from Twilight.. AHHH <3333 (=

and WHAT is brown imo…?~?!!?~?~?!?!?!?

anyways. back to reality? we all have our dream people right? i don’t really though. i don’t wish for some celebrity that i’ll most likely never get. i’m simple. i’m happy with what i’ve got. and when you don’t have someone. then dream. but ladies, be realistic. Kim Jaejoong is never going to give you a second glance. And if you like korean styles and korean haircuts and stuff? Go date a korean guy. Do something about it.

^^

Okay, well. this is getting long. And I’m going to take a nap now cuz of my horrible stress last night. But I will leave you with a little goodbye picture[s]. xD

 

 

 

 CHOI SIWOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOON.

 

 

 

*SPONTANEOUS COMBUSTION*

gorgeous vietnamese loser.

so this past weekend, i enjoyed a braindead program on TV called the Miss Universe Pagaent. It was the first year that I actually watched it in entirety with my mom and dad because of course, I’m ethnocentric in a way and the pageant was held in Viet Nam. So duh.

The  beginning is always the best for me because the girls get to wear their traditional culture costumes to represent their country. I think all the different colors and outfits are amazing and it’s way to proudly show where you came from (unlike the swimsuit or evening gown rounds).

But what made me most excited was when they called Miss Vietnam was one of the Top 15 finalists. I mean, HOLY CRAP. I don’t think that Miss Vietnam has ever been in any top things. It’s not the fact that she wasn’t pretty that made this an element of surprised. It was the fact that Viet Nam hasn’t been cranking out pageantry standard women if you get what I mean. But beside that point, the fun and games ended there for Miss Vietnam anyways.

You know why?

‘Cuz she’s short that’s why.

You can clearly see it when she stood next to all the other 14 contestants that she was a few inches shorter. And they say in life, when you’re short, you don’t get the big bucks. 5′9″ won’t beat a 5′11″ (Miss Venezuela who won the competition).

But But But..she’s so pretty! & it’s JUST a few inches!

Well pretty doesn’t get you anywhere hon. Pageants are about lanky long legged Amazonians that toward above ever with their sexy struts. I’m sorry Miss Vietnam. Should have worn a higher pair of heels.

 

SIDENOTE

DID ANYONE GET A KICK OUT OF THE FACT THAT MISS USA (OH GLORIOUS AMERICA!) FELL? MAKES IT THE SECOND CONSECUTIVE TIME NOW (AFTER LAST YEAR).

oh ho ho. kind of a metaphor for the US right now ain’t it.

10 Reasons Why I Hate Being Skinny

I know that 25% of Americans are obese or whatever. But I am in that .82749% of Americans that are skinny. NATURALLY. Now everyone’s all like, “ohmygoshyouaresoskinnyimsojealous!” but, uh i’m not really happy with that. On the scale at my house, I am 98 lbs (*gasps!!*) and on the scale at my doctor’s office I am 101 lb (*gaspss again!*). I know. Be jealous. Not.

Here we go!

1) Hearing “ohmygoshyouaresoskinnyimsojealous!” over and over again. I’m seriously sick of it. Wanna be skinny? Ever heard of getting off your couch potato but and going outside for a run? Okay, maybe you exercise. Well. Commit to it.

2) Hearing my name connected with the words “anorexic” and “diet” and “not eating”.Shut up people! I eat as much as you do. Maybe even more (I’m talking to all you dieters that eat one carrot stick a day or something. It won’t work)! Don’t JUDGE me because you don’t watch me on a surveillance camera 24/7 and monitor what foods go into my mouth.

Same goes with “you should eat more.”

3) Being reluctant to exercise because you might lose the weight you gained the week before.I just recently found out that I love jogging. The steady thump-thump of your feet as you move across the pavement, grass, or whatever. It’s like flying if you close your eyes (though not recommended because light poles and street signs DO exist). But although it makes my legs stronger, it makes my waist drop a size. Ahhh horrible.

4) Picking up trashy celeb magazines and all you see is “Lose 20 pounds!” & “______. Too skinny? Too fat?” Seriously. I like to indulge upon the lives of the rich and famous just like the other person, but spare me the weight examinations. It makes me feel bad, and it makes the slightly overweight but still damn gorgeous girl next to me self-conscious too.

5) Finding bottoms that fit nicely.People wouldn’t think that this would be a problem but it is. Pants/Jeans that are snug at the waist, flattering on the body, and long past my feet are SO DAMN HARD TO FIND. And plus, i’m skinny but I’m 5′5″ so size 0s are usually too short. >=O

6) How you look like a stick in everything that shows your shoulders and above or knees and below. No explanation needed. It’s a pain.

7) Being light.Push me and I fall. Punch me and I bruise. Blow at me and I fly <– Jk.

8 ) Maybe this is just for me but..Hard to float on water. Is it just because I have minimal body fat?

9) Being cold easily. It’s 65 degrees and I’m still in a sweater and shivering. How the girl across the street comfortable in a small tank top and shorts, I do not know.

10) Lack of boobage. Laugh all you want. But then again, if I did have a nice rack, it’d look odd on my skinny body wouldn’t it. Like bowling balls balanced on a board =P

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This may seem like a rant. A list of complaints. In many ways it is. But really, I am very happy with my body and I really think a lot of girls should be too. Everyone is gorgeous in their own way; fat or not fat, boobs or no boobs, tall or short. If there’s is some aspect that you don’t like about you body, aim to change it. If you really put your mind into it, everything will work out fine. But in the end, maybe your body is just like that. So really.

LOVE IT.

 

I’m in a PMSing mood gosh dang it ):

 

♥