breezing by.

last monday i was fine. and then I got killer sick that night.

tuesday. work from 7-1 was killer. i was chugging down Emergen-C like my life depended on in (basically).

No seriously, I was dying. and then I had a PHYSICS midterm that same day.

Yea, as IF I’m going to pass THAT one. I’m LUCKY if I even get 6 points (one multiple choice question worth) out of 100. Yep, THAT BAD. I didn’t have a tissue throughout the exam too so I was sniffling and WIPING MY SNOT on my sleeve. Yes, very attractive. Diana was like “Yea, your boyfriend would totally love you right now” which just made me feel worse. *Sigh.

So I went home. I FORGOT I had another class that same day. Stupid quiz section after Physics on Tuesdays. Ugh. I was so irritated because we were suppose to get back our midterms that day and I totally forgot. But hey, I was sick and I just wanted to get the hell home and go to sleep.

Wednesday was not any better. I skipped Chemistry class, telling my friends to cover for me. Thank god I switch clickers off with Sydney, otherwise I would lose clicker points and I CANNOT afford to lose clicker points in that class anymore.  It’s because we sit on the balcony and the machine hates people who sit on the balcony and never likes to accept our clickers. =/ And so I slept most of the day. And I actually forgot my Comm class started at 11:30 and not 12:30 like I initially thought until I was like “wait….me and sydney bowl until 11:30 usually…”. I missed the bus and ended up making it only one minute late to the class. Luckily, there were hecka people late because it was pouring rain and sad. And so we took our midterm. I wasn’t so worried about Comm class because it’s easy to understand and comprehend the shtuff he talks about but it’s just a lot of shtuff. Turns out, I did a lot better than I initially thought. I was hoping for a mid-B, but I actually got a 90%. A low A, but an A nonetheless. (: Anyways, I had work that same day, 2-5 and I was dying the entire time and coughing and sniffling my ass out. And I skipped VSA meeting too which I didn’t really want to do but I had to because because of daylight savings, it’s like, completely dark at 5pm now and I really didn’t want to walk all the way through campus while being sick and unaware of my surroundings when it was so dark out. Maybe in two weeks. So I went home. And slept.

That night my parents made me do this asian sauna thing where you boil lemongrass and put in a little green eucalyptus oil into the water and swirl it around and then you cover yourself with a blanket and steam over the pot. I felt a bit better but I was still congested so I don’t think it worked. I just pretty much sat there sweating my ass off literally. It was a pool of sweat by the end and I had to mop of the floor with my towel :[

Thursday. I cancelled lunch with an old friend whom I haven't seen in foreverrrrr. I felt bad because we planned it about two weeks in advance but I was too sick. I ended up making plans with another friend for a massage.

Matt has been studying massage as a hobby of his for a while, and a few months back, I read a public posting recruiting up people to try his techniques on. Of course I volunteered and it was his birthday present for me =)

Let's just say it was the most amazing experience I've ever had with someone's hands on my body ;] He was completely professional about it, wearing a blindfold and whatnot. I came wearing jeans and a long sleeve but he wanted as much skin baring so I had to borrow a pair of shorts and a cami from Kathryn to shimmy into. And I laid face down on his little curved pillow and covered myself with the sheet thing. It was first just regular rubbing and feeling up and down my back for little bumps of tension and stuff. Apparently I’m super stiff and I had a hard time just relaxing. And then when he applied the pressure with his elbow or hand or whatever (I don’t know because I was facedown), it hurt but it was the kind of good hurt…you know? and then he used this really cool tingly cream over me (it smelled good!) and then pulled out my arms and my legs. It was…just amazing. And by then, I was kind of going in and out of falling asleep. All I remember after that was him putting a towel on me and laying these hot stones on my back and I just passed out. Seriously. He said for half an hour? And when I was semi concious, all I could hear was my phone vibrating. Lol. I had to ask Matt to text back my friends because I was just soo….out of it.

I seriously think that was what made me better because I feel goooooood the next day. Now I just have occasional sniffles and little coughs but my body feels so. much. better. I must take him out for the lunch the next time I see him. ^^

On Friday, it was a girl’s afternoon out filled with bowling and DDR and very horrible three table ping pong. We made a huge ruckus and were really loud but it was very fun and kept my mind off things for a while.

The weekend was good. Sister came up. My parents had a party to go to Saturday night so I went out with my sister and her friends. We had a good time. Dinner and then Dilettante’s. They’re taking me out devirginizing my clubginity when my parents are away in VN. =) I’m excited. I came home and just crashed because alcohol makes me so sleepy and we walked a lot and it was cold outside and so warm underneath my covers.

Today was a quiet day filled with lot’s of baby pictures and cuddling with Tamtam. She’s just adorableeeee now. Her chubchub cheeks and her blowing of raspberries. <3

On the love side of my life, I’ve been really strained lately. Long distance relationships really do suck, no matter how much faith you put into it, hoping it will work out. Things never go as planned right? Anyways, it’s through tough times that friends come through and provide the support you need and comfort you through all the tears you cry. I know I don’t have many close friends but I do love the small circle that I do have. My problems mainly have been petty girl things such as jealousy and pangs of sadness but it’s all due to the fact that I’m here and he’s there. It’s not that I don’t trust him. I really do. But of course, I can’t help feeling the way I do because it’s just hard. But I was able to talk through some of it tonight after being pretty much pressured into it (thanks, person.). Apparently, I’m suppose to tell him everything I feel? I know it sounds pretty “duh” when you write it down but sometimes you’re just scared of losing the person if you reveal to them how much you really care. I didn’t want to. Truthfully, I’ve never been really good with controlling my emotions. I suppress them and hide them away from the people they directly impact. Some people say that jealousy means that you care. If your boyfriend/girlfriend never got jealous, that’s not good. I wonder if he even ever gets jealous. And speaking of showing you care, how do you should you care if you’re in a long distance relationship? (I feel like being Natalie Tran and saying “post your comments at the bottom of this page”. HAH.) Actually, I’m quite creative and I have a million ideas of how I would do it. But for some reason, I doubt he would have any creative ideas. Lol. It’s a million to one in terms of guys like that. And it’s funny to think that the one guy that was creative ended up being a guy that I couldn’t be with. *shrugs. Life is that way I guess.

I had a good weekend honestly. Chocolate + cuteness overload. Thanksgiving this year should be fabulous as well. (:

stuffed to the brim.

im dyinnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnng.

i’m so sick. my nose is dying. and today i had the pleeeeeasure of sitting next to my cute crush-but-not-a-crush-but-still-he-makes-me-blush (HAPPILY TAKEN YO!) in communications class and i’m wheezing and sniffling and whatnot. god, i’m so embarassed. and in class, we had to pull out our books and i didn’t bring mine so he offered me his book and i’m like freaking out in my head but i said “it’s okay” because i was already sharing with Kenchin next to me. but i was really dying swooning while sniffling and rubbing my nose raw. how nice of him. and whenever he laughs, he laughs through his nose and makes that wheezing sound that is very similiar to sound of a air compressor or a bike pump. y’know that air squezzing sound? yea that’s how how quiet laugh sounds like. super kawaii.

and i swear the anatomy lab room is worst and make me more stuffed up. it must be all the dead bones (and fetal skulls in tubware which makes me think of eating lunch). 

gosh, shawn. thanks so much for making me sick. (: but i hope you’re having a fabulous time on the runway or enjoying the show or whatnot. i miss you much (and thinking of ways to plot your death for giving me this horrible cold) and i’ll see you soo.

 

i’m currently down in portland. it’s a bit past midnight. the baby shower is tomorrow today. we’re having a BBQ and whatnot because it’s going to be 68 degrees! and 75 on sunday! but i’m sick so i’m not allowed to hold any babies (DAMMIT!) ]= but we’re going shopping tomorrow (sunday) and whatnot so i’m pretty syked for this weekend. it’s going to be crowded and fun and now my benadyl is kicking in so im going to sleep.

 

CIAO.

just leave me alooooone

yes. the horredous has happened. hao has lost her voice. which is like, most likely to happen considering all the arguing and screaming and yelling and happy talk i did yesterday with my already dying throat. but what is annoying is that people don’t get it. im hao that always talks and is happy and gibberish. BUT CAN YOU STOP TALKING TO ME because painfully, i cannot talk back to you as much as i’d like to. i want to. it hurts me to want to pronunciate words back to you that don’t sound like a cats being choked (mee-ugh- cough cough- ow..!). but thankful for your “i’m sorries” and considering i ran into someone that i really like to talk to on the bus and he understood what i was gong thru (him being sick for the last four days) and just made me laugh silently with his women jokes. thanks, love.

*temple pulsates rapidly*

twenty-four hours and 7 pills later. i’m still in pain. for some reason, i  feel like i’m worst. my headache has subsided just a little, but to make up for it, my throat feels like you took sandpaper and scraped the living crap outta it. and shoved a sponge ball down. yep. pretty much feels like that. yesterday, i took a total of seven pills, 3 kinds. generic brand tylenol (made of acetaminophen, caffeine, and codeine), excedrin extra strength, and general brand tylenol PM (made of acetaminophen and diphenhydramine) basically, i’m drugged out. i feel like a zombie and my head is so heavy it feels like it’s going to roll off if i tilt it to the left or the right. amazing stuff medicine can do for you. anyways.

yesterday was an okay day. we’re doing the worst crap in math : word problems. i hate word problems. with math, it’s suppose to be straight to the point using formulas and solving stuff. not “if john had a baseball, and the rate he threw it was blah blah blah….find blah blah blah relative to blah in terms of blah”. blah. and in history i drew another comic out of boredom. i will upload it later. and in humanities, i listened to presentations. woohoo. maybe it’s the pills or something, but the time goes soo slowly now. agggggh.

 anyways. i need to go do my homework now because i didn’t do it last night because i was on the verge of having imprints of the keyboard on my forehead if you get my point. now sweet dreams~

banging my head on the table

i hate my dad in the fact that when he’s sick, he does NOT care about the well-being of others. he doesn’t cover up when he coughs and hacks everywhere. hence the inevitable happened, it hurts for me to swallow now. maybe i’ll get my tonsils removed.. ugh plus. i have a MAJOR migraine and i just wanna to go sleep because i’ve been staying up late trying to get all my homework done and im so. tired. ugh. and we don’t see small packets of tylenol cold and i don’t wanna grab a box of it with like 24 caplets or something cuz i don’t need 24 caplets, i just need a few to last me for today. god. my head. is. killing me.

AND ALLY. THOSE PRESSURE POINTS DON’T WORK. X_X

ugh..

im sick. called in to say i wasn’t going downtown to volunteer today. gosh i feel bad..literally too. stuffy nose. barely a cough but everytime i swallow it feels like my throat has a huge rock in it. fun. woopdeedoo. and i have a math quiz today.  fun.