sweet seattle fall.

i absolutely love the misty rain falling on my face when i tilt it up to search the sky for sunshine.

pictures to come.

if i were a boy…

i see what beyonce is saying now. boys > girls.

…only not in the heartbreak sense. i just mean they get to do all the fun stuff!

huge break since the last post and i’ll start with what’s recent. i’m currently in iowa. for 19 days i’ll be hanging with my brother’s family including my two darling-when-they’re-behaving nephews. and i’ll also be practicing my not-so-great driving skills soon.

it’s great so far. in fact, absolutely fantastic…considering i don’t do much in seattle anyways.

yesterday, i chopped wood. i enhanced my biceps brachii and brachialis muscles. my brother didn’t let me use that huge ax though because knowing me, i’d probably chop my leg off before i even hit anything with the blade. so i got the hammer and the ________. i really don’t know what it’s called but it’s the triangular thing that you pound into the middle of the log and then repeatedly hit it with the hammer until it splits the log? yea. fun stuff. it’s AMAZING anger management.

and then after that, we went fishing! it was horrible though because the fish were BITING LIKE CRAZY. and i didn’t catch many. only about 3. but on both sides of me, my brother and his wife were catching them by the seconds. as soon as they casted their line, a fish would bite right away. and sometimes it was only seconds apart and i would stand there and say “oh my god” and become a bit more insane. yepp. i think i must have killed over 10 “nightcrawlers” and i started feeling their screams everytime i dug my nails into their body to cut them into halves and then slide it onto the hook. (i’m so going to hell for killing worms.) but i guess i was hooking it wrong or something because the fish had a good dinner… i lost so many .. =/

and so my brother says he’ll take my catfish fishing at night [because they come out at night or something] and i asked how it was different from regular fishing. he says the catfish weight more. well, obviously. five-ten pounds. my arms are going to DIE if i have to reel one in.

and then today, we went kite flying. i haven’t been kite flying since i was seven or so with my kite made of paper and chopsticks and gift wrapper ribbon [hella asian.] my dad made them for me so it always flew amazingly. so yea, today was pretty great too. i had no idea what i was doing so my brother had to show me how to pull on the strings and what to do when it nosedives [which it kept on doing for the first three times or so i was able to get it up] and when there’s no wind. it was pretty sweeeeeet. there wasn’t much wind so we couldn’t fly huge kites so i got to fly my nephew’s mickey mouse kite. haha. and it went heckaaaaa high too because i had extra long string =D

and now, i just finished a nightly scrabble game [i pwn at scrabble] in which i won by a large margin and am now settling in to bed and finishing up watching coraline. coraline is an okay movie so far. im not watching it in 3D and i know that the original movie had many parts in 3D so i keep on thinking i’m missing out on 3D parts. which makes the movie unenjoyable for ]: but the colors are preeeeeeeeettty. so yes. that’s iowa so far.

seattle? i’m so glad to be away from the weather there. it’s like freaking 90s -100 when i left.the last day i was there, it had the highest temperature EVER for seattle. EVER. talk about global warming. it makes me even THINK of recycling. =P

advising and orientation was the shizzzzzzz. kinda. at first it was the shit. and then it was the shizzzz. haha. i think i made three new friends there. all girls [omg!]. notice i said “i think?”. i’m quite horrible with people. and awkward. and just plain mean and sarcastic. hence my not-so-many-friends.  but anyways. i stayed the night and my roomate was this girl named roxanna from socal. she’s from china [seriously! she has a green card] but she’s been here like, all her life. i wonder why doesn’t go for citizenship but i didn’t probe her because i’ve only known her for a day anyways. she was pretty awesome. gorgeeeeeeeous and she was all applying makeup and straightening and curling and hair and whatnot while i sat there and looked at my zitty complexion in the mirror. T______T” and then the other two [kimberly and maricza] i met thru sydney, my good friend from middle school, during lunchtime. they’re all dorming [syd's apartmenting] which makes me so jealous. and it was really weird because i wanted some asian guys to scope out y’know? but i swear, about 84% of my A&O that day were white. and like, jocks and cool cliques people white too. it was horrrrrrible. but ohwell, i had fun anyways.

and then that weekend i went to portland for baby Tam’s one month. SHE IS SO ADORABLEEEE. and she grew SO MUCH in TWO WEEKS. ohmygosh! that little girl is heading on the american path of obesity at age 1month already! [JUST KIDDING PEOPLE.] it was so crowded though and i thoroughly got sick of my sister barking orders at me. I HAD TO WORK THE GRILL OUTSIDE IN 90 DEGREE TEMPERATURE. i mean, ITS CHILD LABOR. so i ended up escaping to her friends’ house and napping.

speaking of that, her gay couple friends got married in hawaii! i watched their home video of the ceremony and the proposal and whatnot [it was a surprise] and it made me crrrrrrrry. it was just soooo sweeet and sooo endearing because the proposee did not know it was coming and was just freaking out and unprepared.  and the background of hawaii…it was truly a very emotional and magical ceremony. and since it was a surprise one, there wasn’t a lot of people. just the main family of both sides and close friends [my sister couldn't go. she was really really sad about it but they married when Tam was just born]. but yes, we [me and her friends] talked about what kind of setting is good for a wedding too. oh, btw. these are the friends that got me drinks at my sister’s wedding and know about my lovelife and tell me to crash at their place if i ever get kicked out and have the theory that learning to drink alcohol in a safe encironment [that is, under THEIR supervision] is better than me going to a random party and getting drunk and whatever trouble there is [which is probably true]. =)

and then, on the wednesday after that weekend. i flew to iowa. so here i am now. and i will go to sleep because it’s actually 1:42am. and i’m a bit tired after scrabble. mentally tired.

kthxbyeeee.

headliners and updates.

http://www.msnbc.msn.com/id/30048425/?GT1=43001

So apparently, on April 1^st, NYU sent out some 489 email acceptance letters that were actually meant to be rejection letters. I mean, that must suck right? Especially since a student is so busy freaking out thinking about whether they got into that school or not.

I mean, it wouldn’t matter as much is that school was like…some community college (do they even send out acceptance emails? CCs I mean?) but it’s like, “HEY. YOU GOT IN” and then the person is all like “HOLY EFF I GOT INTO NYU *CALLS UP EVERYONE THEY KNOW*” only to find out an hour later that “SORRY. MY BAD. WE ACTUALLY DON’T WANT YOU.”

Jeezus, that sucks. I know I’d be crying or something if that happened to me and if NYU was my first choice or something.

Anyways, so I’m finding out that a lot of people didn’t get into UW or they got put on the waiting list and this is really sucking because it’s making me horrendously worried for my own selfish reasons related to someone directly close to me. And I always thought that one of my friends would definitely get in because he is a RS student and getting college transfer credits as well and I mean, that means he’s better than some high school students lacking that 4.0 (or 3.5) right? But he didn’t. And now I don’t know what he’s doing. ><”

On the other hand, there is something on the news I must rant about.

http://seattletimes.nwsource.com/html/localnews/2008986370_websixdead04m.html

A man kills his 5 children and then commits suicide. What I didn’t see in the article (but heard on NPR this morning) was that the father found his wife with another man the earlier evening, and when she said she was leaving him, he went berserk and killed his children. Basically.

At first when I heard the news, my family and I thought it was related to the economic downturn. After all, there have recently been numerous national events related to the economy (note the one in NY, the kidnapping of the man with his daughter) and people losing their jobs can alter a person’s state of mind. We thought the father had been laid off and killed his family because of worriment or shame or something along the lines of that. But apparently not. But what DOESN’T make sense is that he killed his kids for something his wife did? He caught his wife with another man, so why kill the kids? Shouldn’t killing the wife (and maybe the other man) make more sense? It fits the whole killing in a passion of rage logic. I’m not saying that I condone any type of killing at all. Seriously, no. But those kids didn’t DO anything. They were ages 7 to 16. One boy, 4 girls. It’s just ridiculous. Even though the man ended up commit suicide, it doesn’t make up for the fact that 5 lives were lost for no reason at all. There was no justice done.

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School starts again on Monday! Woot woot. Not! I want it to start on Tuesday or Wednesday actually. Not because I don’t like school or nothing. Well, we all don’t like school to some degree but I’m one of those nerds that do like learning so be quiet. It’s actually because of this freakiiiiiiiiiiing weather. I mean, the news was even like “if you can find a reason to not stay inside, take it” and I’m thinking, “can we go outside for syllabus reading?” and I would totally skip if not for the fact that if you miss the first day and there are people on the waiting list, then you are dropped. At least I don’t have yoga and I’ll be spending the morning relaxing underneath bed covers. Woohoo.

I cleaned the yard today, and we’re going to cut the grass. It feels like spring. But it’s not going to last because it’s going to rain like…on Wednesday.  I’m also just resting on the hammock and read a chapter from Little Women. I find comfort in quiet nowadays, I don’t know why. Just me and the sun and quietness. I think I’ve adapted to my loner lifestyle. Haha.

Oh and apparently, my sister’s baby is kicking like crazy and starting to turn (she’s due in like, 2 months) and that my sister’s belly is starting to sag and be all pregnant. Cool. I’m so excited for the baby shower in 2 weeks and my brother’s coming home in less than 2 months! And yes life is doing good. Everything’s fine and dandy. The sun has helped business at the store and I’m eating a nectarine.

I always seem to be sleeping and eating but I never seem to game weight. Oddly enough, I’m fine with that. C cups will have to wait until I get pregnant. xD

 babies

new year’s, clothes, and ghost sex!

alas, it is thursday. which means it is friday tomorrow. which means new year’s is monday! why yes kevin and iz, the best part of new years is rice cakes “ooooohriiiiceeeecakes *mockingly*” 

thanks. lol. 

so apparently it’s the “end of winter season” and all the stores are having sales on clothes and whatnot. i am eagerly awaiting the arrival of my peacoat from ae that i/shawn got for me. lol. yes, i still owe him  half the money so it’s half mine. you can wear it half the time then, hon.  we’ll share xD but in seattle, clearence sale doesn’t matter cuz winter lasts well into february and apparently there MIGHT JUST BE more snow on the way. shitake! it’s already freezingly cold. i actually froze my ass off in the car because my parents stopped by sam’s club and left me in the car cuz i was sleeping and i woke up and was like where the hell am i. yes, kinda disorientated. and the whole diliating my pupils at the optemetrist’s today didn’t help either. it makes EVERYTHING extra blurry. and so i walked out of the clinic all stumbling and stuff (adding to my clumsiness) and squinty. ohmygosh i might have looked extra chinese! =P

i’m listening to clazziquai right now and i think it’s the perfect thing to listen to when the lights are all warming (instead of shockingly flourescent) and the heater is running and you’re all snuggled up in a billion layer of clothes. 

“gentle rain is coming down” &hearts;

so i read in the newspaper about the lenovo thinkpad W700ds and ITS COMPLETELY AWESOME. it’s like, totally the dream laptop. it has TWO screens and an BLUE-RAY player. oh and 5 USB ports and and like 760 gigs of total memory. and a whole lotta stuff i don’t know what it means but i think it’d be fun to tinker with! xD 

and the last sentence completely cracked me up.

 

” The company says it is aimed at oil and gas explorers, photographers, designers and other PC users who require high performance, but Lamborghini, Hummer and Harley-Davidson owners might also appreciate it. ” –NY Times, 1/22/09

it’s like. almost 4K. ohmygosh!

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anyways. i have this horrible cancker sore thats RIGHT ON MY LIP. it’s all pulsing and stuff too. like a volcano ready to explodddeeee. if i bit it really hard it would probablyooze RED FLAMING BLOOD LAVA (: gross, i know. it’s pretty devestating because i can’t find my favorite chapstick anywhere and my lips are cracking and gross. grr.

okay. shower then grey’s anatomy. it’s going to be juicccccaaaay. bailey and derek face-off! mer der kissface! did you know they’re quote “grooming” unquote Arizona to be a love interest for Callie? i mean, arizona does not seem like a closet lez/bi. and mark and lexie, more sex! izzie and denny, sex no more! wow, grey’s is downhill but cross your fingers for more “deep” drama.

i do like the on-death-row guy though. he really plays the part well. and if he will die anyway, just let him give his damn organs to the little boy! 

okay. shower!

tonight in seattle.

sharp winds harshly slice through leaf scattered lawns

blades of grass become slender green gymnasts doing bridges

as they bend over backwards, head over heels.

a cold draft weaves past layers of scarf on jacket on shirt on shirt

invisible frigid hands gently glide underneath layers, caressing skin to the tune of goosebumps

a chilling draft, it weaves in and out between scarf, jacket, sweater, shirt.

a thickening black coated silence covers the sky, revealing nothing to the one looking up

a bashful moon has yet to grace us with its golden presence

you should…hold on tighter to umbrella stems as gales play tug of war

and rain pushes sideways, disregarding laws of gravity.

this weather, an angry lover.

hell hath no fear like a woman’s scorn.

 

 

 

 

it’s cold.

Seattle weather shows no love.

 

Oh I love my mom. The first thing she says when I walk through the door is “WOOOW YOU’RE NOT WEARING JEANS!”. [: I guess it’s quite amazing, since I never let go of my denim. But cords are okay too. The feel nice against your skin but it attracts lint like crazy.

I’m baaaaack home. Finally. I loved Iowa. I loved being away from my parents and hanging out and being free. But I got a little homesick towards the end. Mom gets lonely without me because she dislikes talking to Dad and she talk to me usually (both a pro and con). I also missed the food as much as I emphasized that I didn’t to my mom. You can only go without fish sauce for so long. =D

Coming back to Seattle, I heard that we’ve been getting amazing gorgeous spectacular fantastic sunshine. Well. Guess what.

It’s cloudy today.

I mean, OMG! Wait until I get back and make it cold and dismal again. And when I was leaving Iowa, it just started getting sunny too. Seriously. What’s up with THAT.

Anyways. Back to unpacking.

I’m excited to put up pictures from my fishing trip! Laterrrrr..

slackin’ off but i’m back.

It’s been a while since I’ve made a blog. That 10 Reasons Why I Hate Being Skinny one really got the hits. Though it was just something that’s been on my mind for a long time now and I just finally let loose. But even though I noticed that many people read it, I was disappointed to find that no one had any real input for me except for anite (thanks m’dear).

Anyways, whining aside, last week was quite an easy sailing ride for me and I haven’t had much to write about except maybe the complaints of failing my chem quiz or the joys of acing my history one. Or maybe the fact that the weather in Seattle has been on drugs. I mean, really, The hailing, snow, rain, clouds, sun, lightning, what the hecks? I’ve been putting of my blogging of my life. Tsk tsk tsk Hao.

UPDATES

• I just go m-flo’s cds from the library and I’m absolutely in love with them! Check out Picture Perfect Love on my music widget to the right !~~>
• I grumbled something about suicide around my mother and now she’s super invading my space and all ….nosy
• I’ve got three Sonya Sones books on my shelf that I must read asap. They’re so hilarious, except maybe a bit childish, but still cute.
• The cake for the wedding is chocolate, white, and pineapple. The appetizers are shrimp cocktail, honey glazed bacon-wrapped shrimp, pork ribs. The main dishes are baked salmon, filet mignon, or fried tofu with assorted vegetables. We have red wine, white wine, and chardonnay. & Martinelli for people like me who are underage ^^
• The headset for my phone died. I can only hear out of one earpiece now =/ Anyone wanna buy me a new one?! It’s only about six dollars =P Though it’s online and I only have cash.

WE ARE STARTING COMPETITIONS IN BADMINTON CLASS SOON. BOOYAH.

I’m paired up with Khan for doubles. We’re  pretty good, that is, when we can see the birdie. Haha.  And I’m in intermediate yo! Thank god not advanced because I’d be up against all those guys who do like power shots that would probably bruise me if they hit me >< But I’m quite excited.

It’s sunny right now and absolutely gorgeeeeous (okay, maybe a tad bit cold) and I’m really anxious to get the ball rollin’ for summer y’know? Cuz who doesn’t want to pull out some shorts, skirts, and capris and show so skiiiin. Though the only thing I hate about that is that I feel obligated to shave my legs so I won’t forever damage someones retinas and traumatized them. Heh. Not that my leg hair grows fast. Or is as thick as carpet or something *coughseankimcough* Ahaha.

So. I’m going to go take a nap now. I’ll write more as soon as I figure out what to right about.

Something that reminds me of my sweetheart ♥